Im kinda in love., And I dont know if she likes me still.

Now, as far as relationships go, I am a F***ing idiot.

But here we go.

About a few years back, I went to my middle school, and I met a girl whom I grew rather fond of.

We never really dated, but I could tell we liked each other.

We were friends, people whom talked to each other during lunch occasionally, flirted with each other, and I managed to slap her ass a few times.

But it did not get out of school.

She did like me, because whenever I pissed her off, she would often try hard to get my attention, or she would get depressed or some S*** like that.

Example: I come into class, and sat down next to her. She got a little edgy, and then I told her: "I dont want to sit next to you any more than you want to sit next to me."
Her eyes started to water. At first, she looked like she was gonna cry. Then she put her head down, and then walked to the teacher and said something. She looked angry and kinda sad.
She said something like I need to go talk to someone, and walked out, before trying to give me this one look that I perform very well (I will post a pic soon). But she failed miserablly at it. Then stormed out. I found out she talked to the counslor.

After that, it went back to normal.

It was only in the middle of the year that I learned that she F***ed some guy who was named "PJ".

PJ was apparently telling about her P**** and how her body looked, which I listend to, and (not knowing that it was the girl that he was talking about) blurted out the following: "Dude, this guy over here is talking about his girlfriend's p****. F***ing disgusting."

I cant remember what happend next, but it ended up her smacking him after class, and storming off. I was slightly confused, although the evidence of what he did was obviously pointed at me.

He F***s her, he tells about experence to his friends, and she learns from me, and breaks up.

Still, she talked about it openly in Civics class after that, saying how he used "Space Age Condoms" or some S*** like that.

It gets worse.

Turns out she was not as goody-goody as she looked.

She F***ed 2 other people, and an 18 year old.

By this time, I was not the most popular person in school, for other reasons. I was antisocial, and angry. I had little friends. Point is, eventually I get into a fight with this PJ guy, and I lose. I get thrown in ED classes, he just gets suspension. I get antidepressants, he gets to keep going to the same school.

Now, I KNOW I am crazy, I have clinical depression, mood swings, and I am not exactly the most sane guy on the planet. I also am a kinda scary dude. Last year, I wore a black plastic fleece/jacket which I rolled up to the sleeves. Even into May, when it happened.

She moved after I went, when I am not sure.

Now, speed ahead a year. I am a freshmen and going to the school that I would have been going to if I completed middle school regularly, only in ED classes. Its basiclly the same, only easier, so I dont have a complaint about it. However, the one guy might as well have gotten off free. I have some friends, mostly just ones I see in school.

Some people still hate me, but then agian, its a big school. The middle school was 2000 something students, the high school 4000 something.

I was googleing, and I eventually happened to find her on myspace.

I signed up an account, and sent her these two messages:

and this message:

Both of which she has read, she has not replied back, nor has she declined my friend request.

Since I sent her the first message and added her to my friends list, she has updated her profile twice, once changing the picture, another time changing the layout.

I'd love to think this is just for me, but naah.


Basiclly, I still love her, and I find that she may be slutty, she has one of the best personallites that I have ever known. She is open-minded, a must in my opinion, smart, psycho like me, and acts ditsy a lot. She is someone who I find is the person whom I can relate to the most in the entire world.

I hate to say it, but I think she is bipolar, being completely spiffy and cheery and so ditsy one day, and then other days she would be cold, quiet, antisocial, and angry, just like me.

I aint to sure about what people will think when they read this, but I really dont care.

Give me your $0.02.

This post has been edited by Dburnell01 on Jun 6 2006, 05:29 PM

Ok, making this reply to let people know that I am done.

what
That girl is a fudging idiot.
what a beeaatch

This post has been edited by Raccoon Sam on Jun 6 2006, 05:32 PM

You know, its obvious what I just posted. Just read it.

Yea, sorry. I got confused.

np,

You and I are a lot alike...

...how old are you?

But I can't help, for I, though exceptionally awesome, am girless. :<
Sorry, mate.
But you're around 15 I'm guessing. If this is the case, where you might find her attractive, I doubt it's "love." I'm having a hard time deciphering your post... do you act like an ass to her? Because there's this one nice chick in my class who I'm a "meanie-head" to (or so she yells at me :p) and I think she's awesome. But yeah, doubt it's "love." I suggest you... well if she's gone, then there's nothing you can do without coming across as a stalker (hah, you Googled her).

Its hard to explain.

I honestly do think it was more than just lust though.

I didn't call it lust. You're attracted. That's more than just petty lust, I'll give you that.

I sent her a message asking if she would reply back.

Probablly a stupid idea, but idc.

HAHAHAHAHA

Sorry, that's what women are like. Especially the "emotional" and "truly sensitive" ones. They fake it and love it.

But not to worry! Our friend maddox has given us a handly little guide for getting past those lies!

http://www.thebestpageintheuniverse.net/c.cgi?u=lying*****

You'll have to change the URL to lying young female to see it though beacuse of this immature filters

This post has been edited by Trasher on Jun 7 2006, 06:00 AM

Maddox is the bomb.

This post has been edited by Dburnell01 on Jun 7 2006, 07:44 PM

Even Pimpmaster Draco can't help you sry

..wait you were in middle school and she had sex with three guys?

Act as desperate as possible and send e-mail after e-mail.

Oh you'll definitely get a reacion from that!

Yeah man! Your first step is just plain getting a response!

No, SHE had sex with three guys, one of them 18.

Obviously not at the same time.

BTW: I recieved a message saying that she didn't know who I was and I should post a pic.


Which is what I did.

This post has been edited by Dburnell01 on Jun 8 2006, 08:53 AM