Well that was a utter failure.

Doing what I wanted like I wanted it without angsting all about me put me in deep ****. Great.

But eh maybe I need to stop caring altogether and do just whatever I feel like?

be an he-*shot*

Nah I don't have the balls to.

Last time I intentionally overdosed I had the most nightmarish day/night ever and I was so scared I was crying and aching.
Because if I had really gone too far I would've been dead for sure because there was nobody to help me if something happened.
I really feared my own death, I wanted to call my parents I really wanted to but I didn't want to tell them I was so ****ing stupid it was so stupid and dumb but yes go on

go on.

But nah no really I'm really sick of just sitting home being boring but people don't really like me. I try to do my best being a cool person but people just don't... I mean yeah.

I'm just plain terrible you know. I can't even fix my own problems. No sir.

Only people I can turn to are internet people and that's sad you know. Infact... I don't have the balls to do anything really. Not even internet stuff. Because the few times I do something like that, I usually **** up and end up in deep ****. Same thing irl.

But hey maybe you're meant to do stupid stuff over and over until you finally get it right?

Even if it is a catastrophic failure one time, you just keep trying until they give in?

You know. I don't know. I'll probably never know. I think I'll just take a break.

This post has been edited by DJ Elly on Jul 9 2009, 12:20 AM

Wait wait don't answer this topic because I'm right now in that sort of mood where solutions will always be taken apart and refuted. But you're really free to ***** and whine about me. You are. Go ahead, I mean it's not like I don't expect it but just saying so that the mods and admins don't ban you for nothing really.

Sorry I just got a real confidence boost and I just... I'm.. I don't know.

I'm sorry. Well I mean I'll probably get banned for being so terrible but that's what you get when you're stupid.

Oh and people who would fight it, please don't. I mean, It's just a stupid internet forum. Just, yeah.

It's allright by me.

This post has been edited by DJ Elly on Jul 9 2009, 12:29 AM

Elly take a ****ing vacation

Didn't realize you were being serious

Don't worry. It's nothing personal, you're an allright person.
It's completely allright with me eh?

More of a me thing than anything (what isn't a me thing with me anyway...)

You seem uneasy of late, Ylle.

Chill out for awhile, clear your head. Everybody's gotte do it once in a while.

This post has been edited by JetSetRaïn on Jul 9 2009, 02:32 AM